Birth and Babies, Motherhood

    Birth Trauma Awareness Week – Griffin’s Arrival

    When I was “planning” (can we really ever plan for birth?) for Griffin’s arrival I made a clear list of things I did and did not want to happen. One thing I didn’t account for was my wishes being disregarded as soon as I laid down in the hospital bed. During my pregnancy with Griffin I’d read every book and taken every class.

    Going in to my birth I wanted to be unmedicated and unhindered by either an IV or an epidural. My husband and I had taken Bradley Natural Childbirth Classes . Movement and the ability to change positions are great for labor. That was what we wanted.

    I went in to labor at three in the morning on February 8th, my contractions weren’t that bad so Chris went in to work. After he left, I showered, ate, and bounced on my birthing ball. I called Chris around one in the afternoon to come home and take me to the doctor. My OB sent me to the hospital after confirming I was in active labor.

    When we arrived there were no beds available in L&D. So we waited. It took almost an hour for a room to become available. The OB saw us another hour after we were given a room.

    The largest cause of stalled labors is stress. My labor stalled after waiting two hours to be seen. The OB told me to go and walk for an hour around the hospital to see if my labor would pick back up again. Surprise, surprise, it didn’t. Most doctor’s would have probably sent me home. I was overdue, but only by two days. I had an induction scheduled for the 14th. The OB stated, “So, am I going to babysit you or are we going to start Pitocin to get this going?”

    I realized then I was not in control. Psychological birth trauma for me began with someone taking away my consent and pressuring me into things I didn’t want to do by making it seem like I had no other options. I labored with Pitocin and no epidural for 12 hours, finally “tapping out” after having a double peaking contraction for 11 consecutive minutes that never came back down to zero.

    Instance after instance my opinion was disregarded because at the end of the day I “wanted to have this baby…right?” It wasn’t until the shift changed that the new attending OB was receptive to my wants and needs, but I had to wait almost 24 hours for that to happen.

    For Birth Trauma Awareness Week I’m teaming up with three other mamas who also experienced a traumatic birth. Join us on instagram to read their stories and loop up with us!

    Find these other amazing mama’s experiences here: Click with Mrs. Quick, Raising Little Cheeks, Topknots and Touchdowns.

    Please feel free to share your own experience in the comments!


    Water Lantern Festival 2019

    We had an amazing time this Saturday at the Baltimore Water Lantern Festival. It was awesome that this year Griffin was a little bit older so that he had the opportunity to decorate his own lantern (really Chris’ lantern). We arrived early again this year, especially since we were at a different venue which was a great choice because we got a fantastic seat not too far away from the water or the food.

    This year as invitees we even got a mandala tapestry which made the perfect blanket for G and I to sit upon. As an added upgrade this year the Water Lantern Festival offered air sofas which are just as comfortable as they sound and also will come in handy for other summer events that we have planned.

    Another awesome upgrade this year is that the Baltimore venue was much smaller which made getting down to the water for launch a much easier process! Both Griffin and I were able to get right down to the dock to launch our lanterns. They even did a staggered launch this year which allowed us to launch and scamper before we got to close to bedtime (which also can equal meltdown time).

    We definitely had the best time and hope to go back year after year!


    The Water Lantern Festival

    Last summer Chris, Griffin and I had the immense pleasure of attending the Water Lantern Festival. It was hands down one of the coolest experiences I’ve ever had.

    We attended the Water Lantern Festival in DC at the National Harbor. The venue was absolutely packed with people! We were glad we arrived early enough to grab a spot to sit and decorate our lantern. When we arrived, we got a little backpack and our lantern kit that we set up and decorated ourselves.

    I dedicated mine to my grandfather who passed away. Before he passed, he passed on his love for all things England, including Harry Potter. After we decorated our lantern we had a chance to eat. I was excited to see so many food trucks parked all around the venue. We had a ton of choices, which was a good thing, especially with a picky toddler.

    There was live entertainment that we got to enjoy while we ate. This was probably G’s favorite part because he got to get up out of the baby carrier and dance his little tush off.

    When the sun got low enough, there was an announcement for people to start making their way to the waterfront to release their lanterns. This was the most breathtaking thing I’ve ever seen. It was so calm and peaceful down at the waterfront, truly a moment of remembrance.

    This is why I’m SO EXCITED to team up with the Water Lantern Festival this year and give my followers a chance to score two tickets (date night anyone) to the Water Lantern Festival of their choice!

    The only thing you have to do is go to my instagram and follow the directions in the post and you are entered! Like this blog post for an additional entry!